To do list!

* Don't make mistakes

Well, where do I even start? First of all, I welcome my self back to LJ. It's been over a year and all. :). I'm not sure how many friends are still active but like I care, I need to vent and if all who hears is the wind then so be it.

There was this chick I liked, who told me countless times, that she was unhappy with her Bf, fine, people are, no biggy, but over time, she and I kinda fell for each other. Now I'll just go off on a tangent and say, that falling in love with your best friend, as we did then, is both a blessing and a curse.

Not wanting to risk spoiling the most perfect friendship I had with her, I denied it from everyone, her, myself, Pilar [who saw right through it. Grr ><] until last week, when Iunno, some kinda realisation came about me and I knew I had to tell her.

So I did, several times, as she usually thinks Im joking about these things. Hennaways, we flirt back and foward for a while, and shes all "We'll see how we go when Im up there"

Monday her and her bf talk, about how they want different things, and how she is unhappy, he apprently was just blank, she seemed shook up but ok.

Next night shes all "Im telling people me and he are over, 'cause we want different things" and "just keep us quiet for now, k?" Meh, fair enough, I'm not the kinda girl to kiss and tell and niether is she really. Then that night I get a text that kills me

"Cj, I can't do it, I just can't" I run out of the party crying and go back to my friends flat for the most heartbreaking emo-coaster ever.

We talk about how shes experiencing shock, related to ending 6 years of your life, we joke, we cry, eventually she agrees again that its me she wants. Then her bf comes in the room where she is, breaks down crying, begging for her back, and she says yes :|. This destroyed me, I couldn't believe it, I wanted to hate her so much, but I couldn't I tried walking away from the friendship but something stopped me, we talked some more, and eventually she agree'd to think it over away from us both.

Now I don't care if its me, he, or some random person named Jim, as long as shes happy thats all I want, thing is I KNOW I can make her happy, and I KNOW that her ex-bf does not. ~sigh~

Such is life

*Flips coin*

Cj out

Now my media library has doubled in size, let us revist this little game

How to play

Set up your media player to play your library on random

Skip foward, use the track name as the answer to the question, repeat this until all questions are answered.

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Got it? Lets go!

Quiz

What does next year have in store for me?
Evening Star

( Read between the minds )

Bleugh. That's the entire update, cos that is how I feel. Bleugh.

On the flipside, a coin has 2 sides. So it can only go uphill from here right?

~sigh~

New layout, what can this mean? Maybe it means I'm so bored I may start updating this again, but prolly not.

-mew-

2007!

Welcome!

Xmas stuff is in my house; look

( Tear down the wall! )